Proposition

Sasha Budayv (Я), MFA 2023, Painting

if we are to propose something – i wish this to be

long alienated weak shimmer –

(fail to recognize)

– piercing through the pile of all

that is me

weak and odd

that is inherited brought together rejected

that is loved or accepted or neglected ostracized tolerated

– i wish this weak – that is suppressed and which rupture is

unbearable –

get resolved

– the best i can feel perceive comprehend intuit-e

is this which coalesce with sort of making

sort of collective appreciation of facets where boundaries diffuse by osmosis

i hope

this new to have room for the weak that demands to be shared to be squandered

although its claim cannot be voiced or communicated

only lived through

in the gathering

sorrily nebulous obscure

i guess it is the

acceptance

of the tragedy

that requires to cease (secret) operations of

sorrows and anger and confusion

behind irony future tongue faith

in orders corinthian doric scythian teutonic grammatic logic aesthetic

it is more unbearable

here

where we observe

discontinuity severance abruption

of the membrane

–

even more terrifying

than what

piercing

through

it is then only weak

with no

big theory

bit epiphany

but the garden

to see